i just got back my results. i did really badly for 2 subjects and reasonably ok for the other 2. i dunno how to tell my parents. i dun dare tell my parents. i feel like a moron. i studied so hard this whole term. i wasnt expecting straight As or anything close to that.. but i wasnt expecting such pathetic grades either. it's nearly worse, or maybe it is, than what i got in yr 1. i dunno what to do. i'm thankful for the results of the other 2 subjects.. i really thank God. and i'm trying to trust Him, to understand that He has His reasons for doing what He does.. but it's like a slap in the face when u've slogged through the entire term, with the sole purpose of better-ing ur shit results, only to have them deteriorate even further. i'm so close to the what's-the-point attitude.. but i noe for sure i'll die like crazy if i ever adopt that. i'm so rigid and inflexible in my thoughts. i read my tbk and expect every single real life situation to be exactly as stated in the dumb bk. twist the qns ard and u have me stumped. post qns that require one to think out of the box and i'm a gonner. everyone tells me i'm not stupid. i cant be if i've already made it this far. it's true in a way. but look how i'm struggling. if they'd only see the amt of effort i put in and then check against the results i get, maybe they'd change their minds. i hate bringing myself down liddat. i hate questioning why cos it only goes to show how little faith i have in God.
help me Lord. help me understand.
Name: Vanessa
Bdae: 081085
Contact: stinky_pillow@hotmail.com
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Food: ice-cream * chocolates * chewy sweets * pizza * cheese * hotdogs * all the nice yummy junk food
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