grrrrr... i dunno if the problem lies with my lappy/blogspot.. but the fonts for my posts are sooooo small!!! i put them as 'normal size' and they come out so micromini.. wth.. so now i shall try 'large.' harhar..
aniwae i've been having some sort of spiritual struggle lately.. suddenly all my years of belief that Christ died on the cross for me just seems next to ludicrous.. i'm finding it so hard to accept that God would send himself down in the form of man to suffer and die for us when all He had to do was just wipe us all out and start all over again.. and God is starting to look so narcissistic.. creating man just so that we could all bow down and worship him.. i mean.. if he really loved us, why couldn't He just let us live in heaven with Him? why create this division? and if He could already foretell what was going to happen in the future - the downfall of men and all - why did He even bother creating us still? it's almost like walking into your own trap isn't it? and what ratty said last week during dcg.. about God sending His son aka himself down to die for us so that God could receive glorification for God's works.. it's all starting to sound so queer.. i mean.. it would be so much easier to see God and Jesus as two separate entities.. (but that would be contrary to the Trinity..) at least then, "God's only son" would sound so much more comfortable.. cos if God and Jesus are the same, then somehow it just seems so wrong to call Jesus God's only son..
man.. i hate this stupid struggle i'm in right now.. i dun think i've ever doubted Christianity this much before.. Father help me find answers.. please..
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